It's been about a month or so since I so much as touched my tablet. Since I started on anti-depressants I have had no inspiration at all. It gives me vital energy to get through the day without depressive periods, and it helps me manage my day. The side-effects are manageable, the only one that bothers me is this sudden lack of creativity.
I miss it so much.

I constantly fear that I'm losing my grip, and that I'm becoming worse than ever, and I hate it. I feel like I have lost an important part of myself and it hurts me. I'm bored like never before, and lately thoughts have been tormenting me day and night, keeping me from a solid night's sleep. In the end only making things worse.

I have some big choices in front of me, and they hardly ever leave me alone to smile and enjoy myself anymore. I really got to get myself together and get a hold of my life, but God, this is the most difficult choice I have had to make.

I'm not going to bother you with the details of it, and I'm sure I'll get it under control, sometime somehow.. Somehow I will get my energy, spirit and inspiration back. I have to.

That was basically it. An apology why I haven't been submitting forever now. I'm sorry.

By the way, I've been starting to make a fresh account, partly because I cannot stand my username, and partly to sort out my creations, giving space to both photographs and drawings.
It's not done yet, but if you wanna check it out, it's zpurr

Take care folks.